I am trying lol….

Well another week has been and gone and still I await the new .. not with impatience though, more with anticipation. I feel an eagerness to get on with what is meant for me as I sit amongst the ashes of the old. I do love those I am around, don’t get me wrong. It isn’t them I wish to be rid of, tis the feeling of standing still; the barricade that refuses to give way to the new path I have asked to be brought to me. Maybe that is as it should be though. I have refined my goals more than once as one block after another appeared in front of me when I tried to wander down those paths. In hindsight I can see why so though it all appears to be standing still for me right now, I must have faith that when the time is right for me, as well as the path, everything will glisten with the new.
Do any of you feel this way? I feel that as I wait, I am being blessed with a clarity about myself and others I had not allowed to come forth before. I am reinventing my way of being, allowing myself to be me with no apology. Such a liberating, if scary occurrence I can tell you to one who has so often allowed others to tell her what is right for her.

I don’t know how you perceive this time but I see it as a time when we must redress and rethink. Its a precious gift we are given and at last I am seeing it as it is happening, rather than in hindsight when its too late to take advantage of it. That is how I used to see it; impatiently banging against the walls that stood between me and what I thought I wanted. Sometimes I succeeded in tearing those walls down, only to learn through the pain of betrayal that it was indeed not the right path for me lol.. now I don’t resent those who betrayed me for it was ultimately me who did that by my lack of trust in myself and my right to a beautiful future, anxiously grabbing at any bauble that passed my way instead of waiting for the pearls to flow in … my mantra for this post is of my own making rather than one that I have read 🙂
It goes as follows:

When the path is hard to see,
close your eyes and come to Me.
I’ll gently guide you through the maze
To heart’s desire and peaceful days…..
Given by The Old Ones 🙂 xxx