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Well despite all my good intentions I have let my blog slide again. I often think I need to have truly exciting news to tell you all but truly many smaller happenings can serve to inspire or comfort someone who reads these and I am now choosing to not judge what is of value and what is not in our topsy-turvy but wonderful and wild world xx
Today is for me a day of change… true change not just one from knee jerk reactions or misty yearnings, though both have definitely played their part in my life on all too many occasions and are again at work. This time, though, I sense a deeper power enticing me down a path in which I cannot see the outcome… ‘It is time for faith in yourself and your life again, my girl’ I hear them whisper and I grin sheepishly to myself… ‘Yeah well it isn’t like I don’t know that’ I quietly answer as I stare at the words I am typing out on my laptop.

I have to admit though, this thing called faith is a scary proposition. I look back over the times I have done so in the past and shiver. How did I get myself into those situations? Was it not because I trusted? Hmmm … ‘No!’ they unequivocally reply, ‘It is not! You had no faith in your own worth nor the ability of life to bring you the love you have always yearned for. Now its time for that to change.. come dance in the light, believe in your destiny and allow us to guide you to your golden time…’ Oh yes, that’s a very scary thing my Guardians are asking of me but I must surrender. Control has been my undoing, allowing myself to be chosen rather than acknowledging it is I who must also choose the other side of that coin.. through self imposed isolation and self doubt I was perfect prey for those who need to dominate others through putting them down.

I cannot blame them though, for I was recreating the same scenario over and over and hoping for a far happier outcome. Nope, you cant shirk it Sandy, you have to love yourself first then all other loves will follow :)… I realise it is time for me to take up my power as a woman and as a bringer of light.. so here goes! Wish me luck… may we all find home this year.. better still may we all recognise it when we do!
Blessings……