carrying on from the last blog’s theme :)

I am not doing very well at keeping my promise to blog every day but in my defence, so much seems to have been cropping up to take my focus away from here and, to be honest when I have had a bit of time to spare I have been goofing off lol…

Anyway to summarise, I have been busy getting my little motorhome ready for registration, taking time out to take Josh away here and there and to catch up with some very dear friends of mine who at long last are able to do the trip they planned on doing with me just over a year ago. Wow! I cannot believe its been so long though life has managed to pack quite a bit of living into this blonde’s existence. I could say both good and bad but when I look back, even those experiences I thought were bad were actually blessings in disguise. I find myself in an interesting position now, sort of like being all dressed up with nowhere to go as I wait for the Universe’s next move. In the meantime I am quietly mending working my own kind of optimistic magic, helping the Universe to know my heart’s desires. I know its easy to think that we are at the mercy of some ‘God’ or other who has the power to deal out luck. Even more easy to see ourselves as being on the receiving end of ill luck instead when things appear to go wrong. The truth is though, that our every thought creates our world. I don’t know how well you are doing at believing you deserve only the best but for me its been a bit of a process lol.. well I am a stubborn, wild creature so it follows my path to understanding would be a tad rocky.

This year I have decided to change my way of being. I am starting with my belief system. A friend of mine on facebook asked a question in her group the other day and it was as follows: What is in your book of beliefs? .. hmmm mine appears to be a bit empty, I thought, as I ruminated on that question. I feel as if I am in a state of transition. My old book was so worn I could no longer make out the words and yet my new book is yet to be written in. As I sit here typing to you I wonder if you are having the same dilemma as I, if indeed it is a dilemma at all?

This last week I have had to let go of a lot of my pride and admit I need a bit of help. I have never truly been one to ask very often. I am fiercely independent, sometimes a little too much so! Life can do that to some of us though. Now I am trying to relearn how to allow myself to be vulnerable, not in the needy sense; nor through a sense of loneliness for that is not what vulnerability is truly all about. It seems to me that allowing oneself to be vulnerable in its truest sense comes from knowing we are worthy of the best and then being open to allowing it to find us. Barriers may keep out those who wish us harm but it also out those who could bring joy and love also. Despite all appearances to the contrary we are not keeping anyone out but rather locking ourselves in. In turn, we allow in the very ones we wished to keep out through sheer loneliness and the cycle begins all over again; or so I have found.

Now enough of these thoughts lol. I believe we are in a very magical time where trust and unconditional love can work the miracles we so desire and with this in mind, slowly but surely I have been opening up and trusting that only the experiences that are in harmony with my soul will find me. Blessings all. I hope you have the most magically, loving day. Till tomorrow.. or the day after lol.. much love, Sandy