what to do….

Hi there, its been a little while since I typed out my feelings and adventures via my blog here, for more than one reason. Firstly I have been flat chat sorting, selling and storing; then of course cleaning the house I was leaving in between being there for those I love who have been going through dramas and also friends, both old and new. The other reason is because I sense that there is someone out there who reads my blog and does not feel happy for me. I sense your presence and your spite. May it rebound three fold if only to teach you that playing with energies in such a negative way will only ever bring you more grief than the person you intended to hurt by such thoughts/intentions. I also want you to know that, despite your best efforts I am still happy and still believe strongly in the magic of life and love 🙂 I hope you will too someday and the games you play will become not only unnecessary but deeply distasteful to you x

Now, having said my piece at last, I am going to continue my story here.. well some of it for not all is for general distribution… my privacy must come before my good intentions to share my travels and experiences in order to not only record them but to share the joys and tribulations found in any big change we make; mostly of course its to celebrate the universal energy that dances with delight every time we decide to live fully and paves the way when asked for us to dance to our own tune. Not sure I am making any sense here but I have come to realise that if there is one constant in life, its the manifestation of that which we believe .. for good or ill LOL…

I am sitting in a holiday park near a beach. I won’t say where for that is one of the things I have learned to keep personal … its a need to know basis and at this time no one else needs to know other than those whom I have told privately that is 🙂 I am exhausted, yes … I am undecided about where my future will lead, most definitely! However I am also optimistic about that future and enthusiastically opening my heart to the big changes I feel are coming my way.

I am letting go of that which no longer bears fruit in my life, be it a thing, thought or person … it isn’t easy I grant you but then neither is sitting in a comfortable rut or feeling sorry for oneself because of the less than happy happenings if you know what I mean lol, and bemoaning the lack of vitality and adventure in one’s life!
So for now this is just a blog to share where my thoughts are with those who care to look after all as I gather my energies in preparation for the next stage of my journey. I am torn… I want my freedom to travel though it may well be on a shoe string budget lol.. yet I do not want to let my family down; especially those who have staunchly stood by me when all who pretended love and support fell by the wayside. Daughter if you are reading this, I am referring to your beautiful loyal spirit here and the others should they bother to read will feel the squeeze of conscience despite themselves that tells them who they are also lol….

I bid you farewell for now as I need to walk said beach, my beautiful dog needs to play and leap in the waves; chase the ball along the sand and love life… I need to accompany him not just for his sake but also for mine. He is a constant joy in my life and seeing him so happy has the power to lift me high above any negative thought or deed…. much love to you regardless of which way your thoughts about me swing…may the Goddess lift you all up and remind you how precious your life is ..! Blessed Be xxx